Tomorrow Bob will start first grade. His kindergarten was a half day so this will be his first time with a full day schedule. It feels like a big deal. This is a day I have both waited for and dreaded for a number of years. I'm a little worried about separation anxiety. Mine, not Bob's. Bob will do great.
I have longed for the day when I would have more time to get things done. And now? I'm not exactly sure what those things are. I am sure this is a momentary lapse and these free hours will become packed quickly with The Busy. In the meantime, there might be a little wall staring and house wandering.
I have loved my time with small Bob. I feel fortunate to have been in the position to stay home with him. Faced with this new season, I know I will love my time with bigger Bob too. However, my job description is changing. My little boss will need me a teeny bit less and in different ways. I'm not sure what this will look like yet or how I will wear it. I can't decide if it feels like a promotion or a demotion. Maybe it's a lateral move.
I will miss him.