Back then
Today, I posted a Facebook update that I am celebrating 29 years sober. One of my friends posted a meme in the comments that reads, "Congratulations on the anniversary of your horrific alcoholic bottom." It made me laugh out loud.
Yes, my horrific alcoholic bottom was exactly that, horrific. Every day I celebrate that October 10, 1987 gets smaller and smaller in the rearview mirror of my life but I also need to remember that first day, the vivid details of every hopeless feeling I had. I need to hold it close as evidence about how much I do not want to return there, to that hopeless place. It's motivation to stay the course.
I know it's only today that matters, only today that I can hold onto, just this one day at a time, as we say. I am grateful for the days that have strung together into these years and all the places these years have taken me. So very grateful.
Happy Birthday. xo
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DeleteIt probably won't surprise you to know that I text that horrific alcoholic bottom picture to many of my friends on their anniversaries.
ReplyDeleteI am so lucky I found you on the Internet. xoxo
I'm so glad you did! xo
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ReplyDeleteThank you, Heather! xo
DeleteRemarkable! Congratulations on 29 years with the program. One of the authors I read writes that AA is one of the great contributions to Western spirituality. I think knowing this about you gives me greater insight into the soulful kindness of *your* writing. Stay well.
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Thanks, Greg! xoxo
DeleteLove you loads, Lisa.
ReplyDeleteLove you, Mrs. Kho. xo
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Thanks, Anna! xoxo
DeleteProud to know you, wonderful woman.
ReplyDeleteLikewise, lady! xoxo
DeleteCongratulations Lisa. I admire you and every one of these 29 years so greatly.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Amy! xo
DeleteYou are amazing and I love your precious wonderful soul!
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I love you, Karen! So much! xoxo
DeleteI love you, Lisa. xo
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DeleteCarry on, you are doing well! x0 N2
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DeleteHappy Birthday.
ReplyDeleteI am in awe and grateful for those who have gone before me.
I am also grateful to have found that the elevator doesn't have to go all the way to the bottom for one to get off.
Yay! Thanks, Uncle Skip! xo
DeleteUncle Skip is very wise, and huge congrats Lisa!
DeleteHe is! Thanks! xo
DeleteCongrats on 29 years.
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DeleteI'm so glad we're friends.
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DeleteIt's hard for me to imagine you that way, since you are always such a source of happiness and joy when I see you and read your words. I am so glad that you saved your life.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Kim. Love to you. xo
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