Today, I posted a Facebook update that I am celebrating 29 years sober. One of my friends posted a meme in the comments that reads, "Congratulations on the anniversary of your horrific alcoholic bottom." It made me laugh out loud.
Yes, my horrific alcoholic bottom was exactly that, horrific. Every day I celebrate that October 10, 1987 gets smaller and smaller in the rearview mirror of my life but I also need to remember that first day, the vivid details of every hopeless feeling I had. I need to hold it close as evidence about how much I do not want to return there, to that hopeless place. It's motivation to stay the course.
I know it's only today that matters, only today that I can hold onto, just this one day at a time, as we say. I am grateful for the days that have strung together into these years and all the places these years have taken me. So very grateful.